Gaining Muscle Without Fat + Fall Photo Shoot
Let me just bust right out with my thesis statement of the day: It's really hard to gain muscle without gaining fat.
Since breaking multiple bones in a car accident over nine years ago, I literally watched my muscles fade away. I felt helpless about the atrophy--doctors enthusiastically encouraged me to keep exercising, saying that the more I worked out, the less I would feel pain. But that's very difficult to convince myself to do when my entire subconscious is screaming that the body needs to rest, and then rest some more.
Over the summer, my sister and I dived into home improvement projects and I felt more alive than ever. I also felt more pain than ever, but that's beside the point. I wanted to put on some muscle where I lost it nine years ago. But when I finally weighed in last week, I realized that I hadn't only put on muscle, but also loads of fat with it.
I gained ten pounds.
This reminds me of the time five years ago, when I hired a personal trainer to try to gain muscle mass, and instead my size simply went up, my BMI went up, and my fat-to-muscle ratio stayed the same (I did gain muscle, but with an equal amount of fat to counterbalance it).
Hmm. I don't really know how to say this any other way, so here goes: I DON'T WANT FAT.
I grew up fat. I don't need to carry excess fat for the rest of my life. I weigh twenty pounds more now than I did when I was a teenager, and that, for me, is not ok. I understand that adult women should weigh a bit more, but that bit more, in my opinion, should definitely be under five or ten pounds.
Anyway, now I fall back into the old conundrum of how to keep gaining muscle without adding pounds of fat. I think it's way more difficult for women to do this than for men.
My options, currently? Either doing another raw vegan fast, or perhaps trying something like p90x (which I own, but my pull-up bar is too small for the gigantic Saudi door frames, and my DVD player is broken so I never actually used it).